Shadowlands Musings: What if my differentness is what God is wanting to Use?

 I went out to serve as a missionary in Dine' Bikeyah beginning summer of 2008, and in January 2009, a group of people from the board I was then with (in addition to Shaddow Cross), had a "talk" with me.   That basically entailed explaining to me why I, who had served in subculture ministry for 7 years, should abandon all trappings of my Gothness, and hopefully all subculture trappings. I sadly believed that to minister out where I was called, that had to be true, due to cultural taboos.  I was broken, but I did my best to hide myself looking more desert and steampunk than Goth.  

For five years I lived like this, until my mother's death, and my Gothness came out in fullness.  Only to be put away partially again by the end of 2015.   But from 2015 through 2017, I was in-depth introduced to the subcultures on the reservations.  Metalheads, emos, a few goths, punks, skaters.  They were all there, just I hadn't seen them before.  

Then things changed, and we came back East.  I was out of my element...
I was confused about where and what God was asking of me.
Was I to serve in Dine' Bikeyah?
Was I to serve among the Subcultures?
Or was God calling me to something different?
Is He asking me to do both?

Just before I left, a Dine' brother in the Lord told me, "God brought you here to learn about missions among my people, and then He showed you the subcultures were here, because He wanted you know how to reach those we don't know how to, so in time you can show us too."

If this is true, how do I walk with this Word?  
How do I use my differentness to serve both my callings?
"Lord, guide my steps!"

In Umbra Terras,

Lady Morria